[...Chamber of an Autistic Demon...]

Singin' in the Rain

shizuka na amaoto ga kokochi yoku hazunde
kuchizusameba machi ni kimi o omou yo

aa itsumo no michi wa kasa ni yureru
iro toridori ni hanayaide

ai mo kawarazu boku wa yamazumi no mondai o
kakaekonda mama de kakemawatteru yo

futo tachitomatte miageta sora wa
aa hitotsu hitotsu shizuku ga kirameite...

itsu made mo furitsuzuke kokoro e
kimi no suki datta ame ni yasashiku tsutsumarete
suteki na uta wa ima demo nagarete kuru yo
I'm just singin' in the rain... with you

toomawari suru tabi tameiki tsuiteta ne
sonna yarikata shika dekinai mitai sa

sou ame ya dori shite ita ne kimi ni...
aa konna hi ni wa jikan ga yomigaeru...

itsu made mo furitsuzuke kokoro e
kimi no suki datta ame ni yasashiku tsutsumarete
suteki na uta wa ima demo nagarete kuru yo
I'm just singin' in the rain... with you

itsu made mo furitsuzuke kokoro e
kimi no suki datta ame ni yasashiku tsutsumarete
zutto zutto yamanaide tsuredashite itai yo
motto motto yamanaide dakiyosete itai yo
...kokoro ga karenai youni

= yui =

My japanese name is :
弓 Yumi (archery) 千秋 Chiaki (very fine in autumn).
generated by : real japanese name generator

* Loves *
computer, L'arc en Ciel, mangas, animes, blue,
cats..

* Hates *
people who think they've known me better than myself

* Wishlist *
Laruku and computer stuffs
graduate from my recent study o(>_<)o
go to Japan

* etc *
don't mess with me!!

Friday, October 6, 2006

.:: existence ::.

I..don't know wether I really exist in other people's life.. as a friend, as a family, as a beloved one... I just can't feel it..
I feel that the more I grew up, the more I found that there're alot of things that I try to discover in my life... there're a lot of things I wanna find... I wanna find trust, the meaning of my life, my existence and a lot more..

now I wanna ask you.. yes you!
do you really think that I really exist? if I do, then why you still doubt me? I won't ask you much.. just see me.. I won't bother your life.. just let me exist in yours.. let me think that my life has meanings for other people. I don't wanna drawn in my own sorrow because I always think that I'm not special. if you just let me exist then that would be more than enough for me.. I can live with it...

look how pathehic I am begging for being exist.. because I don't know any other way.. I'm tired of being forgotten.. I'm tired of being invisible.. I'm tired from feeling useless...
if you can't do all those stuffs then don't say anything to me that makes me think you've promised me.. I know very well that I'm not special then please don't remind me by forgeting me. I know that I'm cursed and I don't want to be remained about it...

I won't blame you for forgeting me.. but if someday if you remember about me, I still remain the same.. I'm your friend, your family, your beloved one as long as I live..
so just find me at my own small corner anytime and fill me up with anything that's been bothering you. then iif you feel better you can just leave anytime as well because I won't ask you to do the same for me...

I just...wanna be exist...

20:10

.:: Gallery ::.

This is my colaboration with nimue. She did the initial sketches then I done the coloring by Adobe Photoshop CS2. Just click on the eSnips button to view the gallery...

= J-Sanctuary Imperial =

= One Page Parody =

= Character =

* My Virtual Eggs *

This is my virtual eggs archieve. I'll adopt 1 egg every month..

Adopt_one_today_from_pickle-green.com/egraphics!

.:: Current BGM ::.
L'Arc~en~Ciel - Singin' in the rain

.:: Email Me ::.
... mail ...

.:: Current Status ::.

.:: Foot Prints ::.

.:: Credits ::.
nimue for the sketching
Miss M for the brushes