[...Chamber of an Autistic Demon...]

Singin' in the Rain

shizuka na amaoto ga kokochi yoku hazunde
kuchizusameba machi ni kimi o omou yo

aa itsumo no michi wa kasa ni yureru
iro toridori ni hanayaide

ai mo kawarazu boku wa yamazumi no mondai o
kakaekonda mama de kakemawatteru yo

futo tachitomatte miageta sora wa
aa hitotsu hitotsu shizuku ga kirameite...

itsu made mo furitsuzuke kokoro e
kimi no suki datta ame ni yasashiku tsutsumarete
suteki na uta wa ima demo nagarete kuru yo
I'm just singin' in the rain... with you

toomawari suru tabi tameiki tsuiteta ne
sonna yarikata shika dekinai mitai sa

sou ame ya dori shite ita ne kimi ni...
aa konna hi ni wa jikan ga yomigaeru...

itsu made mo furitsuzuke kokoro e
kimi no suki datta ame ni yasashiku tsutsumarete
suteki na uta wa ima demo nagarete kuru yo
I'm just singin' in the rain... with you

itsu made mo furitsuzuke kokoro e
kimi no suki datta ame ni yasashiku tsutsumarete
zutto zutto yamanaide tsuredashite itai yo
motto motto yamanaide dakiyosete itai yo
...kokoro ga karenai youni

= yui =

My japanese name is :
弓 Yumi (archery) 千秋 Chiaki (very fine in autumn).
generated by : real japanese name generator

* Loves *
computer, L'arc en Ciel, mangas, animes, blue,
cats..

* Hates *
people who think they've known me better than myself

* Wishlist *
Laruku and computer stuffs
graduate from my recent study o(>_<)o
go to Japan

* etc *
don't mess with me!!

Friday, October 13, 2006

.:: rules ::.

I feel that I begin to get freaked out with everything.. and I think it's all because of the stupid things in the world called RULES!!

I just don't get it..
allthese time I try so hard to follow every rules I have to follow inmyenvirontments. I know very well that if I don't follow them willcauseme get into trouble..
but why?? why I still got myself intotrouble even though I've followedthe rules?? why I still being blamedfor done something based on therules??
and the thing that wannamake me scream it's unfair is I've seen somepeople ignore the rules andthey're fine.. no punishments.. nodetentions.. why me?? why it isalways me who got the blames? Idon't care if they wanna teach me tobecome a better person thenothers. I don't care if I stay the way Iam.. I don't care if peoplethink I'm stupid.. I just wanna respectmyself and what I've done.. howcan I respect myself if I always toldthat I'm wrong??

and look what I became! I am full of worriesin doing anything.. I'mworry if in the end someone told me that I amwrong.. even for a smallthing like I mostly won't dare to start theconversation with peoplethat I rarely speak to.. I'm afraid that I'llbe rejected because I'vebothered them.. everybode has their own rules,right?
so I just stay and watch them from where I am and wondering what's in their mind that time...

that's why I think that I begin to freak out on rules..
maybeit's better if I just remain stay and do nothing.. if that also asignof breaking the rules then please... please just kill me!!!
I can'tlive like this for a long time. my confidence worn out slowlybut sure..I even hate knowing what I've done so far like my computerworks forsome drawings and my own cover songs.. feels like they're allwrong!! seems like they all suck!!
I HATE THEM !! I HATE THEM ALL !!!

22:50

.:: Gallery ::.

This is my colaboration with nimue. She did the initial sketches then I done the coloring by Adobe Photoshop CS2. Just click on the eSnips button to view the gallery...

= J-Sanctuary Imperial =

= One Page Parody =

= Character =

* My Virtual Eggs *

This is my virtual eggs archieve. I'll adopt 1 egg every month..

Adopt_one_today_from_pickle-green.com/egraphics!

.:: Current BGM ::.
L'Arc~en~Ciel - Singin' in the rain

.:: Email Me ::.
... mail ...

.:: Current Status ::.

.:: Foot Prints ::.

.:: Credits ::.
nimue for the sketching
Miss M for the brushes