[...Chamber of an Autistic Demon...]

Singin' in the Rain

shizuka na amaoto ga kokochi yoku hazunde
kuchizusameba machi ni kimi o omou yo

aa itsumo no michi wa kasa ni yureru
iro toridori ni hanayaide

ai mo kawarazu boku wa yamazumi no mondai o
kakaekonda mama de kakemawatteru yo

futo tachitomatte miageta sora wa
aa hitotsu hitotsu shizuku ga kirameite...

itsu made mo furitsuzuke kokoro e
kimi no suki datta ame ni yasashiku tsutsumarete
suteki na uta wa ima demo nagarete kuru yo
I'm just singin' in the rain... with you

toomawari suru tabi tameiki tsuiteta ne
sonna yarikata shika dekinai mitai sa

sou ame ya dori shite ita ne kimi ni...
aa konna hi ni wa jikan ga yomigaeru...

itsu made mo furitsuzuke kokoro e
kimi no suki datta ame ni yasashiku tsutsumarete
suteki na uta wa ima demo nagarete kuru yo
I'm just singin' in the rain... with you

itsu made mo furitsuzuke kokoro e
kimi no suki datta ame ni yasashiku tsutsumarete
zutto zutto yamanaide tsuredashite itai yo
motto motto yamanaide dakiyosete itai yo
...kokoro ga karenai youni

= yui =

My japanese name is :
弓 Yumi (archery) 千秋 Chiaki (very fine in autumn).
generated by : real japanese name generator

* Loves *
computer, L'arc en Ciel, mangas, animes, blue,
cats..

* Hates *
people who think they've known me better than myself

* Wishlist *
Laruku and computer stuffs
graduate from my recent study o(>_<)o
go to Japan

* etc *
don't mess with me!!

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

.:: friendship and trust ::.

Today I just wanna put a little of something that bothered me and being stuck in my head lately.. it's the matter of friendship.. it's the matter of trust..

Do I really be able to make friend? No..no.. make friend's quite easy actually.. but why I got the feeling that it's only me who think of them as my friend? Do I always have to make the first move? Like asking how're they doing.. how's life lately.. chat about anything that cross our mind.. or simply just wanna say 'hi' not because it's what we should do to our friend, but because we miss our friend and wanna catch up what we've been missing...
I really have to find a very good reason to keep in touch with them. Because I feel that it's so hard for me to be in the same circle. maybe I should stop hoping that I'll be able to be a friend of some great people. I'm just an ordinary person who'll slowly fading among them...

If you said that I'm overthinking on silly stuffs like that, then I wanna ask you.. Do you really believe me when I said that I'll always be your friend no matter what happen? Do you REALLY trust me everytime you say that you trust me?
I don't blame you for doubting me. I don't blame you for not thinking that I'm one of your friend. But please.. Don't say anything just because you wanna say something sweet to me.. It's just gonna temporarily help me feel better and then I'll be doomed again.. I'd stay feeling miserable rather than that..

I know.. I know you're gonna think that I don't trust myself again.. I do! I lost my trust on myself for that matter.. How can I trust myself if all the things that I just said keep happening to me over and over again?

I guess I won't have to think too much about this matter if only I am a great person.. I surely can keep my friends and they also count me as their friend.

Ne.. what would you say or do if I say that I missed to hang around with you?

Anyway.. Happy Halloween, guys !

09:04

.:: Gallery ::.

This is my colaboration with nimue. She did the initial sketches then I done the coloring by Adobe Photoshop CS2. Just click on the eSnips button to view the gallery...

= J-Sanctuary Imperial =

= One Page Parody =

= Character =

* My Virtual Eggs *

This is my virtual eggs archieve. I'll adopt 1 egg every month..

Adopt_one_today_from_pickle-green.com/egraphics!

.:: Current BGM ::.
L'Arc~en~Ciel - Singin' in the rain

.:: Email Me ::.
... mail ...

.:: Current Status ::.

.:: Foot Prints ::.

.:: Credits ::.
nimue for the sketching
Miss M for the brushes