.:: need ::.

actually I'm not sure what to write after all this time. I'm losing my feeling on most of things..and I kinda stuck of being un-needed... again..

I was told once that I shouldn't be to hard on myself. I admit that might hard to myself. it's all because I feel like I never done anything right. maybe that's the reason people I know slowly turn their back on me and leave. seems like they don't need me anymore just like they used to.. or maybe all of this time I only make myself think that they need me so I feel that my life has meanings for other people..

but now.. I begin to feel tired.. tired to cover the truth that actually I'm not that kind of person. I'm not needed.. everybody seems to have someone else to help them. and I.. when I open my eyes.. I look around and all I see is myself. then I realize that it was me who try so hard to keep in touch with them most of the time. it was me who begin the conversation in the first place most of the time.. it was me who need them...
I don't even pay enough attention that they might feel bothered because of me..

how could I be so stupid?!
I have to stop myself from bugging them. how can people like me if all I can do is screwed up everything?? even though there're people once said that it's okay for me to bug them. but I'm pretty sure they said it just to be nice to me so I wouldn't feel terrible..

this feeling's hurting me.. I never thought that keeping friends to stay would be this hard..
and I'm too dumb to figure out what should I do to deal with it...

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.:: Gallery ::.

This is my colaboration with nimue. She did the initial sketches then I done the coloring by Adobe Photoshop CS2. Just click on the eSnips button to view the gallery...

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